I pretty much want to follow all the same blogs as I did on my last tumblr BUT I DONT KNOW WHO THEY ARE NOW.

Was far too bored of my old blog so just had to make a new one because I actually detest it so much.

Having to audition for anything is scary enough but today was the worst. My whole class watched the auditions so when I fucked up big time, it wasn’t just in front of the director and my lecturer, there were also twenty-six other people. I’m such a nervous person anyway but as I was auditioning for a role in ‘Bad Girls’, I really felt the pressure as I wanted to do well so bad. I was so confident this morning and I felt prepared and ready for the audition. When I made the tiniest little mistake, instead of continuing, I froze and sang nothing and when I found myself again what I did sing was wrong and also incredibly pitchy as nerves completely took over and I just fell apart. When I was thankfully done, my whole class just looked at me with pity and I wanted the ground to swallow me up. Normally I could shake something like that off but I wanted this part so bad and I fucked up in front of my incredibly judgmental class and it was completely my fault.